Tuesday, 5 May 2009
i serious feel like i might faint any second now.feel so sick.
what i wrote the yesterday, about giving up, i dont think its working.
it has become more harder, actually. i dont think i can do this.
but its becoming harder every time i see him with her.
i dont think he even likes me, even as a friend.
i just want to be his close friend, if thats the only thing i can be to him.
BT is such a fucking slut. i cant believe she could go so low for a boyfriend.
i mean seriously, cant she find anyone her own age?
i cant take to see Diana so sad. even though she wont show it.
i know she is hurting inside, and to tell the truth, i feel the same way.
now we both are the same. god why cant BT just go get a life?
like she even has one. all her friends, to speak the truth, are bitches.
specially that one bitch. she said i was the first person to call her a bitch.
i am so honored, really i am.
i really hope he doesn't hate me.
i dont know why, i feel like i am annoyed by everyone else, except Diana, off course.
she is like my sister. seriously, so many people think we both look alike.
but we are so different; good different.
i really hope i would have stayed at home today.
i am dead tired right now. geez.
i want to sleeeep. ZzzzZ.
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"i feel so untouched, and i want you so much" --Untouched, The Veronicas.
Tuesday, May 05, 2009