god, i hate my life.
went out with nina, chong han and jimmy.
was really fun but the thing that happened during it.
goddddd.

was having such a good time, had to ruin it all.
the only thing i want right now is,
for someone to hold me tightly and say,"dont worry, everything is going to be fine."
i just want that. someone to care for me.

I stood there with my eyes closed, enjoying the warmth I could feel through his sweater
Wishing, I never had to let go.

I cant stand another night on my own. I need you and no one else.
I want you to be the one holding my hand and never letting go.

I want you to be the one who says,"it'll be okay, dont be sad." All the time.
Everyone else has a hand to hold, why not me?

i love you.

okay, i am at school right now. its 2:51 i think.
i am having pc so we are in the comp lab watching a movie which is boring.
i really hate my life.
last night, in my room i took a scissors and was ready to end my life.
but when i heard my sister laughing and my parents having a really good time.
i almost cut myself, thats when your voice in my head said, "dont do it."
i decided to listen and burst into tears in my room. for an hour, i think.
going to nina's house today. for jumping. trampoline.
i think jimmy is gonna be there.
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life is just a lighted match stick, you just need to wait for it to burn out.

i love you. i really do.
i saw you and her.
just couldnt take it anymore.
so i ran and i cried and i wished
that this would all end.
why cant i get what i want?
everyone else does.
it just isnt fair. life is unfair.
we all know it.
you're just not any other crush of mine.
you are the one i have known to not live without.
when i see you, i catch a glimpse of heaven. really do.
your wave is not the only thing i want when we see each other.
i want more. i want to be more than just friends.
please?
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let love rain down on me.

stupid head-ache.
and cramps.
its so pain and so annoying.
this couple broke up today.
i am so depressed. for them.
i just hope they find someone else(:
break-ups are so awful. not that i have had one.
but all the people who went through said its the worst feeling you have.
if i am in a relationship, i will wait for him to say it. i wont.
i just dont want it to be my fault or anything.
so, yeah.

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you are the reason that i breathe.

this week is going so incredibly slow.
its annoying.
i am blogging alot, i have realised.
well, almost only 2 more months till school ends.
it so fucking fast. cant it just slow down?
my loved ones are leavingg.
depressing.
school is gonna be so boring next year.
i really want to change school. =S
its not fair, everyone else gets to change.
well i guess i am being too self-centered.
now that i think about it, the world economics, i dont really feel like putting my parents in that situation.
aiya, i guess just need to wait.
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lost all my courage.

fuck fuck fuck.
i hate my life.
sometimes i feel it was better if i werent alive.
i think i should just give up. just let it flow.
dont think i can do this anymore.
i hate this. hate my life.
fuck.

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this is where the end starts.

okay, this is just gross.
this guy added me on msn and i dont even know him.
its so gross, its good i deleted him.
why are people like that?
it disgusts me so much i want to puke.

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romeo, take me.

heyy = =

so long havent write blog.
thats because i guess i didnt feel like it, lol.
school. its just so fast.
there is only like 3 months left for school.
i am so NOT ready for the last day.
almost all the people i love are leaving.
this is just so not fair. why?
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[[i will be waiting, right here.]]